This shall be a place where i rant and whine about every single thing and also update about my daily life. I have a thousand and one things to say but i feel so tied down by everything that is happening in my life.
Firstly, I feel like a changed girl. A new Priscilla with a changed face and a new name that will officially change soon. (Sophie-Jane Lim). Since i am still swelling on my eye area, i feel extremely hideous and thus my reluctance to attend school.
Secondly, because of the surgery i have spent most of my time at home during the holidays. It caused me to drift away from all of my friends and so i am afraid to see them in school again with this new look of mine.
Thirdly, I honestly don't know why i am extremely affected from knowing that he had a new girlfriend.. Pris its time to grow up and get over him, such jerks does not deserve you.
Fourthly, I am pretty afraid of the end result of this eyelid surgery.. sometimes i wonder, if i will look uglier, if i will regret doing this surgery, if it is reversible. Why, why, why. I've risked my face, my look
Fifthly, I have a certain affection for A. and i do not know if it is even mutual. I feel like a stupid girl liking someone i have never ever met. I feel like i can never know how he is feeling.. although he said he have a liking for me or something of that sort, but honestly, if a guy really does, he would text you even if he was extremely busy, he would have asked you out. I don't expect a message every hour or so but maybe 5 hours? Is that too much? Whats the point of replying only once everyday?
Masked with a fake smile
